ujian hidup semakin berat...

Dah 3 mlm berkampung kat hospital ni...nampak macam tak ada perubahan pun..sedih sangat tengok keadaan mak...dugaan cukup besar untuk kami dan keluarga...

Setiap hari ku bermohon...agar mak cepat sembuh...semakin berat dugaan untuk mak nampaknya...dan aku...aku lemah sangat ni..nape jadi macam ni...mana semangat aku ni? Mana hilangnya??

Dan..berite itu...ssngat melemahkan aku..
Ya Allah...kuatkanlah hatiku ini...agar dapat mengharungi setiap dugaan..

tears...

Berat mata memandang...berat lg bahu memikul...ya Allah kuatkanlah hati kami...mengharungi dugaan ini...

tears...

Air mata..tolong jangan mengalir...mata simpankan air mata ini..tolonglah aku merayu..ya Allah..tabahkanlah hati ini menghadapi hari yang mendatang..mata..mohon tabah melihat kesakitan beliau ini...

apa nak jadi?

apa nak jadi katanya?

hah..tiba-tiba nak mengupdate story..cerita apa pulak la kali ni kan...hurmm..cerita ada orang nak masuk meminang..hihihi...macam gatal je..macam gedik je...macam malu je...sabar..sabar...bukan masanya lagi..nasib beliau memahami situasi..walaupun macam-macam berlaku lately..aku tetap memikir kehidupan berumah tangga sekarang ni..sebab..sebab..sebanya..semua orang dah berbunyi-bunyi menanya bila nak kawin..bunyi macam senang kan...tapi susah sebenarnya..banyak benda nak kena pikir...

tambahan keadaan mak yang kurang sihat ni...sampai terpikir nak kawin ngan orang kampung je...sebab senang balik sekali..boley tengok mak selalu..hehehe...boleh macam tu..sampai macam tu pikiran memikirkan mak dengan abah..boleh kot..kalau dah berjodoh dengan orang kampung tak salah rasanya kan...

Opick Tiada Duka Yang Abadi (lirik)

Ya Allah berikanlah kami semua kekuatan dan ketabahan untuk menghadapi ujian hidup serta lindungilah kami semua dr azab kubur dan azab api neraka......

Lifehouse - I'm Falling Even More In Love With You

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officially degree holder story..but...

dear my bloggie..how are you?

its been a while since my last entry..here i would like to share my yesterday convocation ceremony ..first of all..i would like to praise to Allah..Alhamdullillah..syukur sangat-sangat..after a year i waiting for this day..a year already...time fly so fast..in just blink of the eye..a year had past..memory..only memory i can recall as substitute of my feeling..feeling sad..i miss my student life story..i miss my teenager time..i miss the environment of study place..i miss my rent house..and of course i miss all my friend..miss a lot..

and yesterday..is my day..wearing jubah, hood and mortar board for the second time..i am happy..proud of myself i can finish my study, even though the journey is full with challenging..and finally,  it reach to the end... Alhamdullillah.. at the moment i saw my reflect to the mirror while i was wearing the maroon jubah..i feel so proud of myself..but one thing is missing..i soothing my own feeling..i said "it's o.k.."

when i saw my friends..they wearing the same jubah as me of coz..i feel so proud of them..i saw the happiness..we were chatting happily..most of them success with their job..i am proud again..my friend with their own career..last year we still together..but now we cannot repeat the moment again..only memory...

                                     


                                           


and to my dear and beloved friend..it was about 6 year already right?..this past 6 years we are going through so much difficulty and happiness together..you know me well and so do i..we love clinging each other..our stupid joke..even till now isn't it?..we cry sometimes...we tell our story good or bad..we listen to each other..and sometime we misunderstood as well..fight..but we can fix it in any minute..that was us..because we really know each other..god give us more time to spend while we further our study from diploma to degree..and we should say thank to Allah..jodoh kita bersama masih dipanjangkan..not like our long lost diploma frenz..and yesterday we wearing the jubah again my beloved friend..we success finally..thanx for being my friend..you like my other half you know nuraziela zulkifli @ alang...hehehe..congrast once again my friend...

                                            

even in the happiness moment..still i cannot throw away my feeling inside..empty..missing..while capture a photo with my abah and abang yesterday..i draw a photo in my mind...i imagine mak beside me..looking at me take the scroll on the stage..looking at me walk proudly while enter in that big hall..take picture together as abah on my right while mak on my left side..same as my diploma moment..but..it was just my imagination..

and that time...abah know i am sad..abah said to me.."abah nak belikan kau bunga..jom" but it was raining heavily..i said its ok lah abah..hujan lebat..then he just passing by..get my the flower..how touching it was..your sacrifice abah...until now..never failed..i know you want make me happy as much as you can..u wanna make my day..i know..you feeling the same as well..terima kasih abah..even the flower you give it just ordinary..not like others...for me..your flower is much..much more beautiful in the world..i love you abah...
and i would like to dedicated my degree to mak and abah..this is for you guys..without both of you..i will not
able standing here today..i will try my best as i can to give happiness to you...

                                          

                                          


                                          

                                         

                                  "thank you Allah for this gift..
                      happy graduation day everyone!! =)"