Seems like a long ago i'm not updating my blog...well, today feel like want to share somethng..yeah..something..story..a sad one..i dont know how to start..but it is..i really want to show how i feel inside..
Hurmm..actually i'm really scared..yeah i'm scared..scared to lost somebody that i really..really love..love damn much..it hurt me to see them in pain..but the thing that i really afraid of..had happened finally..without any thought..then..for the first time i saw my dearly mother admit to hopital..this is kind of history..my parent never admit to hospital all this while..but it happened..it really scared me to death..i swear..it is..
And im crying..cry and cry..until there is no tears to flow up..this is so much pain.whenever i see my mother had so many injection..my mother is not a maniquen..but i know they just do their job..but i really feel the pain..the pain in my chest..when i see the scrnario..the image is still there..
i am sorry mom..i cant do anything..but one thing is for sure..i will be there..beside you..to care of you..to accompany you..to help you when you need something..because i love you so much..so..so much..and the thing that i did is the same like what you have done for me...no..no not only me mother..but for us..you take care of us..help us..raising us until we growing up..thanx a lot mother..whatever i do..i still cannot pay all the sacrifice that you and abah had done...
I am sorry..if you not feel the happiness yet..but i promise i am trying to bri g those hapiness to both of you..i just need your bless mak abah...thanx for everything...i love you guys so much...
Dear Allah..thanx still give me tbis chance..in whatever happend in the past..i will not blame it..may be rezeki still not in my side..because i have this precious momment with my parent..to take care of them..i believe in you dear God..coz "rezeki itu datangnya dari-MU ya Allah.."semoga di kemudian hari akan ada sinar yang menerangi...AMin..
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