pray for sabah

what happened in Sabah currently is so unexpected..i have read the article in some blog..it is really disappointing! how could certain people make stupid statement! i meant every single thing happened in  Sabah..why must be politicize? think before talk dude! you live in Malaysia not in Palestine..we want peace not war! should be support and pray for them..not insulting them! they risked their life for the sake of our country.. don't blame each other..why can't all the party in this country be united at least once??is it possible? just for our beloved country..

                              

PLANNING Again..

hello Monday!

when i woke up this morning..o.k not really morning by the way..i started thinking..how many time that i have wasted without doing anything? day by day..week by week..and month passes so fast..i'm getting scared you know..i felt like..like..like what huh? i don't know how to explain how  do i felt right now..i'm just don't know..what kind of life that i will have in the future?..is this normal feeling to people whom unemployed like me? word 'scared' is always in me now..

i need some money...not some actually..but i need much money..money to buy a car..yess..i really..really wanted it right now..but how? i can even have job..how could i?i really..really stress..stress..please..give me some job..whatever it is..

hurmmm..i think like..i want to work at mall for temporarily..at least i can have some saving right?even though not much..the ranking salary in the highest once i think maybe around RM900..i should try from the earlier..now i regretted again..i should done it a long time before..that is always me..do it without long term thinking..then i'm the one who will regret all of it..well i deserved it..thanks to myself..uwaaaaa~

so, for the next step..this coming Thursday i will go to my sister's house again..so i think..better i use this opportunity to seeking for a job..! i hope it can give me some light of my life..uwuuuuuuuu~hope so..hehehe..
planning is always planning..make sure u do it nomie! dont just say it!

I HAVE NOTHING...NOTHING

today is sunday...

as usual..lazy Sunday.. bored Sunday..and mayday-mayday ..hahaha..well..my current location updated in my hometown..yess..i'm backkkkk! after a feww week spent my time without doing nothing in my sister's house..hurmm..jobless..jobless...that is me..how come? when i can have a proper job? speaking about the job..actually i have been offer to work in insuran company at k.L..what? K.l? uhuuuu..if i could, i want to avoid working in k.l..maybe lot of people said that k.l is one of the huge  opportunity to get a job..yes that's right..i admit it..but i need to think so many..many thing..in term of living place, transportation, and so on..if basic salary is under than RM 2000..can i have a saving?  even if i get more than that..i think is quite hard for me..i know myself well...i know i can't afford with the low salary while live  in that big city..i know..i have once live in there..as student..with the allowance that i get from my study loan plus from my parents..still not enough.. ..but when i have an offer RM 1500 and living in my hometown..i think is more than enough right?..but...it is  hard to get job in here as well..waiting..and waiting..

i felt guilty actually to my bff ..she offer me that job but then i refuse and rejected the offer..but i don't want to make wrong decision..it's tough for starting work in there..wrong decision? did i make correct decision now? hurmm..i don't know either..whatever it is i hope my bff not angry with me..

in that time..i have done with a few interview..from bank..looks like i have a little hope for working in bank..but still..i am not put high expectation to get this job..coz i know its not an easy right..but i just hope i get the job..but ..and but again huh? yess.. felt a liltle bit confusing..lets say i get this job..then how i want to go to work while i am not drive a car..i do have a licens..but..again..but i'm not used drive car..it must awkward .and hard for me..how come huh? duhh..my dad's car is manual then..ohooo..why not auto??? should i rent for a car..the auto once? duhh..really burden my brain to think all that stuff..

i think i don't have a choice..i need to work out in driving..i have to and i should  do it..but again..who will accompany me..and teach me?my bro? oh definitely not o.k...i more prefer other people than my own bro..i know them well..urghhhh~useless..hurmmm...what should i do now? with no money..no car..i have nothing..nothing...sob~sob~sob 

  

harapan...

salam jumaat...

     

       fuhhh..sibuk dok membelek jawatan kosong..tak tahu la  ada harapan ke tak ada..sedang berusaha sebaik mungkin nak mendapatkan rezeki..wuhuuu..ayat dramatik habis..apa sahaja yang ada aku cuba. macam seronok je bila belek-belek ada jawatan kosong yang sesuai..masalahnya..dapat ke tidak? layak kah? experience...duhhh~ blur sekejap. memang exactly la kan tak ada experience...thaht is why la kena terima seadanya kan...

      Dear God..

       please give new hope and get better life in my future... really..really hope...^^

blurpppp..Alhamdullilah baru lepas dinner at kemaman kopitiam..kenyang sampai sakit perut. lepas je makan tadi buat aku terpikir nak kerja kat starmall tu buat sementara waktu ni. ermm..betul jugakkan..daripada aku duduk saja je..lebih baik aku test kerja kat kat situ..walaupun orang kata cikai-cikai je..at least aku dapat jugak income. nak tunggu dapat kerja yang peroper memang mimpi sampai ke bintang la jawabnya.

at least kalau aku dah kerja kat mall tu dapat jugak pengalaman baru, income of course la and maybe kenalan baru..boaring la kalau duduk rumah tak buat apa-apa. duit pun tak ada..kalau masa study dulu dapat  la jugak duit sara diri mara bagi kan...hadoiiiii..hutang mara belambak...gulp! sebut pasal hutang buat aku cuak la..baru je abis belajar dah bergelumang dengan hutang.hutang oh hutang...dimanakan a=ku cai duit nak bayar hutang...sabar jelah...

so, lepas ni aku dah bersiap sedia nak lancarkan strategi

WHAT SHOULD I DO?

what should i do now?. boaringnya lahai..satu kerja pun tak dapat lagi..my friends semuanya dah bekerjaya. sekarang ni..tinggal aku sorang je yang tengah terkontang-kanting. hmmmm~apalah nasib aku ni. bila masa la aku nak dapat bina kerjaya aku ni agaknya? risau pulak hati aku ni bila dipikir-pikirkan. serabut pun ada..

bosan memang bosan..mana taknya..hari-hari aku makan, tengok tv, pastu on9 sampai lebam and then tidor pulak sampai ke tengah hari...aduh~teruknya perangai aku ni..macam mana nak kahwin nanti?kikikiki (mood gatal) kahwin la sangat kan.. entah sape la yang nak meminang aku kalau begini gayenye kan?. mengeluh lagi...

besfriend aku pun dah dapat kerja..alang dah dapat kerja...congrats alang...^_~ i'm happy for you..fighting alang!! do the best be the best! orang lain yang dapat kerja aku yang happy..haha~walaupun aku masih menjadi penganggur kan..hehe..lepas ni boleh la alang aku..bwahahahaha..(ketawa jahat). whatever it is..good luck alang..i will always pray for you..i miss u actually... although i'm not really speak up about it..but..yeah..the truth is i am..i miss u so much alang...6 years we known each other..we should proud of it.

what should i do now? i can only try and pray for the best in my future. i believe that one day i will get what i want. i will reach my dream above the sky. InsyaAllah...just keep move on..